Monthly Archives: November 2014

To make a gesture to oneself

“Laura wandered into the dining-room set with real silver, soft-looking silver, for the luncheon party. The walls and ceiling reflected the harbour’s trembling surface. Today of all days, because Felix was so amiable before the Blaines came, she had plucked up the will to ask him for a new dress. She had dragged herself to the idea of this as easily as she might have urged herself to the rim of an active volcano: it was against nature. But—it wasn’t even that the shabbiness of her few clothes made her vulnerable to the snubs of the expense-account tycoon she had to bargain with daily. It was, rather, that she had to make a gesture from herself to herself, do something to assuage, make amends to — Really, she was foolish. He had told her ages ago, ‘Ask for anything you want.’ ‘Then — could I have some pocket-money every week? Not a lot. Only to save up with.’ ‘What? Isn’t that like a woman? You go and spoil it straight away. What do you want money for? I know what to do with money. I said when you want some thing. Aren’t you fed and driven about in a new car? The only thing women can do with money is spend it or put it in a savings bank. No. Come to me and say, “Felix, I want a — whatever it is—please.” And if sales are looking up, we’ll see what we can do.’ ”

Elizabeth Harrower The Watch Tower, Text Classics 2012 p 159- 160

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sorrow and joy

“Sorrow is so woven through us, so much a part of our souls, or
at least any understanding of our souls that we are able to attain,
that every experience is dyed with its colour. This is why, even
in moment of joy, part of that joy is the seams of ore that are
our sorrow. They burn darkly and beautifully in the midst of joy,
and they make joy the complete experience that it is. But they still burn.”
Christian Wiman, Mt Bright Abyss

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